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[adamlanzaballs]

never get obsessed with celebrities… i have a habit of obsessing over people and it’s hard to not but I try not to get obsessed with celebrities because they’re never good people and also it’s embarassing they don’t care about you . one thing i will never understand is why some people geniunely worship celebrities and do everything they can to get them more money. eg taylor swift megafans that buy every single one of her albums and constantly stream her songs. why. she doesn’t care about you and she will never care about you , you’re just a source of income for her and she already has more than enough money … this is also really prevalent in kpop .. like these sheep promoting their favourite groups ??? why??? what are you doing man???? it’s like these people are turning their favourite celebrities into a religion. anyway. obsess over mass murderers instead. el oh el. i hate everyone i think why is everyone so strange this is a genuine question what’s wrong with everyone also a generalisation . i feel like im a new person every like six weeks . that’s what happened when i was crazy i forgot eveything every week and i had to build myself up again because i forgot who i was every single week it was like a vacuum had taken away all my memories and i didn’t know who i was or what i was supposed to do i remember very vividly there was like 2 hours were i felt like i was stuck in my phone like i had completely dissociated from my body and i was my phone and all i could do was swipe through different apps trying to get out but i was in my phone . and i also had it in my head that every single time i went to a different place it would feel and look different like i had gone to a different reality and of course that’s not what happened so whenever i went somewhere else and it didn’t feel like it was supposed to i just got so confused and i couldn’t comprehend why it wasn’t different and instead of realising oh everything is in the same place im not going to a different reality i just decided it wasn’t real and i had to be dreaming . when delusions are confronted it is very stressful for the delusional person