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[adamlanzaballs]

i’m always craving a gun in my mouth. i feel like that’s the best way to go. shotgun blow my head into pieces…. please… if i had access to guns i would kill myself no hesitation but I’m Not American 😭😭😭😭 God . that’s one thing i envy about americans . . easy access to suicide…. i haven’t attempted suicide in like a year because i realised all of my attempts won’t work and will probably just make my life worse so i wont try until i know for certain im not surviving it… suicide is my number one craving. i think about it every day. it’s just so unbelievably appealing to me. doing literally anything makes me think hm i wouldn’t have to do this if i was dead … i wish i didn’t have family because then i wouldn’t have anything stopping me. i sometimes get so angry at my parents because of the fact that they are responsible for creating me. and it’s their fault im alive. and i wish so badly that i was aborted. thinking about it makes my heart hurt. if i was never born i wouldn’t have had to go through anything . it just makes me so angry . just because THEY decided THEY wanted kids I have to deal with the consequences .